:) Hey ya'll its me again time for a monthly update. This isn't going to be long since I'm studying right now for the thrid test I've had this week :shock: And by that last sentence you can kinda guess how things are around here. If schoolwork is a tsunami then I feel like the guy whose farm had a beautiful view of the ocean and I'm in the tallest palm tree watching everything go by underneath me. Its that hectic and whats really bothersome about it is that its only 15 hours of classes. I mena I took 18 hours last semester came out with a high B average and got twice as much sleep and half as much homework. I've got a couple of really nasty professors as far as homework goes....a couple of really bad lecturer's and one who does a decent job but apprently never left pre-school judging by his temper tantrums. Anyways suffice to say that I'm barely keeping my head above water right now....There have been some good days however, this last weekend was great because I got to hang out with Adam, Anastasia and Erin. Adam and Ana have a little apartment in a city north of here and are getting along well as newlyweds jsut a week past their first MONTH anniversery. Erin was great company and great fun on the trip up. So that was good I've gotten several packages in the last few days two with valentine's presents....so the little moments of joy help to dull some of this frustration and trouble. I've decided to cut back on my chemo shots and within the next month stop taking it entirely. I know that my doctor says they work best in conjuction with the other drug, but I just can't live this tired anymore. The fact that its finally starting to make my hair fall out is jsut the dot on the I for my decision. I'm only 21 years old and while I'm not all that bound by my appearance I don't have a lot to work with in the way of looks and since I know from my sophmore year in high school that I look like a complete idiot with no hair I don't want to risk it this soon. The women situation in my life has changed its dynamic again. I think I've decided that for at least the next year I'm gonna avoid thinking about women in any other way than co-workers or friends. There is too much at stake right now for me to try and struggle through school with another broken heart. I've done that before and it was not fun and it really did a number on my health. Just the thought of going through that again makes me sick to my stomach and I'll probably workout for 30 minutes before i go to bed tonight to get rid of all the energy. On a lighter note I finally got back to running. Since I've been sick since mid-december and didn't want to aggravate my illness I forced myself to stop and I've decided that I'm finally well enough to get back to it. As usual after taking an extended break my muscles are weak and my joints and tendons sore, but I felt good all day so I know that I can get back. There is tons going on in my head but to write half of it down would mean no sleep tonight and a very bad grade on my test tommorrow morning niether of which I'm particularly keen on. I apologize but I jsut realized that there is so little structure to this blog that its probably painful to read. crap....I'll go back and format it a little before I leave y'all for this month....there....that should be more legible....and I'm gonna get back to studying and get in bed early tonight to be well rested for tommorrow. God Bless you all if you have any comments POST EM!:D And I'll be seeing y'all around!
Coming from the part of an "almost broken heart" that feels like a punch in the gut and a nervous "before test" twitch - Ferris :D
